random chain of emo ideas...........

now i understand y sometimes ppl just wanna commit suicide alr... when one thing after the other brings u further away from what u cherish, what u love and what u are... when doubts pile on more doubts, when tragedy follows another tragedy, when all the smiles u see are evil, when everything falls into place and convince u that the world is against u..... I am far too logical to know not to do it or even feel depressed about it.... but to know that u gonna lose that hope for a much beautiful future and settle for a new beginning, it just bloody hurt yr pride, yr heart and yr really bloody soul.... even nothing is confirmed but the heart keep sinking and yr confidence and faith just lost.... u lose what u feel good about yrself.... u just dun feel complete anymore.... acceptance is just a better label for ignorance.... move on with life OR cheat on.... should i just stop and change my course again.... should i just let all the setbacks just hold me back.... should i just bloody stay put at my status quo and so call accept all the setbacks.... or should i fight? should i just go straight to the demon inside me and destroy it.... should i fight for wad i cherish.... should i fight for wad i love.... should i trust my feelings and go on... destroy the monster that consumes my faith and hope... i am a man that could have chosen the path of dead or feel like dying... nothing drastic is gonna happen though.... just for now, i realized how selfish i can be.... how desperate i am and how foolish i am to trust my instinct and feeling.......