random chain of emo ideas...........

now i understand y sometimes ppl just wanna commit suicide alr... when one thing after the other brings u further away from what u cherish, what u love and what u are... when doubts pile on more doubts, when tragedy follows another tragedy, when all the smiles u see are evil, when everything falls into place and convince u that the world is against u..... I am far too logical to know not to do it or even feel depressed about it.... but to know that u gonna lose that hope for a much beautiful future and settle for a new beginning, it just bloody hurt yr pride, yr heart and yr really bloody soul.... even nothing is confirmed but the heart keep sinking and yr confidence and faith just lost.... u lose what u feel good about yrself.... u just dun feel complete anymore.... acceptance is just a better label for ignorance.... move on with life OR cheat on.... should i just stop and change my course again.... should i just let all the setbacks just hold me back.... should i just bloody stay put at my status quo and so call accept all the setbacks.... or should i fight? should i just go straight to the demon inside me and destroy it.... should i fight for wad i cherish.... should i fight for wad i love.... should i trust my feelings and go on... destroy the monster that consumes my faith and hope... i am a man that could have chosen the path of dead or feel like dying... nothing drastic is gonna happen though.... just for now, i realized how selfish i can be.... how desperate i am and how foolish i am to trust my instinct and feeling.......

holiday

F*** the exams.... now must plan a very friutful holiday instead of wasting it away.... going gym is a start... then hopefully can go overseas... really think what should i join instead of band.... meet pri sch friends again.... Malaysia trip wif JJB... emmm play new 2K10 or NBA LIVE 10... emmm mug for next sem???? dun want to slack leh....

today

RANDOM BASTARD just knock on me delibrately and scold me that i shouldn't use the entire path way..... must be a SUPER lousy day for him... scolding random ppl like me....
anyway... went back NJ to get cert... see lots of teachers... chat for at least an hour.... still din see the three teacher that really pushed me.... ting, lim and ducro...
haha.... must be bz giving consultations....
oh well.... things are fine in NJ... met so juniors too... but din see SW around... a bit disappointed.... still see yiping and adrian though.... all the smart ones... the rest all go back mug their last paper...
lol... i just feel so happy that i no need to go through that again... haha at least now the stress comes in a slightly different form... although more challenging but not as mundane...
in good mood now....

BAND....

Somehow a band with a strong french horn section will never sound bad.... even the trumpets and euphos din really project their sound, the woodwinds are not that precise, and that definitely super strong tuba..... of coz, they must have a certain level of intonation to be able to achieve that good sound....

I recall that someone comment a band as 有气势，没细节.... this band definately has this type of characteristic... some performance that sound impressive alone but could not so when another strong band is brought into the picture... elementary mistakes are still around.... Still need to inject that musicality into the music....

but overall, really must thank the super strong french horn that make the sound so solid... linking the "brightness of the woodwinds and trumpets" and the "warmness of the bass section"... and also introducing that grandness into the music....

in my opinion, most section need to work on projections and intonation... after that is the clarity of articulation.... then hopefully the musicality will kick in automatically....

JJB bros

For them to discuss {wad happened to me} to giving me advices..... these are true friends... although i think they did share some laughing (which i think i would too) but to tell me is another.... for a porn link to exist means that my blog has reached a certain level of popularity (or i am wrong to assume that), it also means that some not so close friends will try to avoid me coz of such careless writing... I feel like edison chan having to explain all the stuff that ppl see online.... I think I will be like him also... taking a roller coaster ride down in reputation and image...

NEW

This is my new blog.... hahaha